I am now home from Geneva, and have so much to share about the next step of God's path for my life. But this is what God has put on my heart today. I will be sure to update you all very soon on everything else.
Crossing the Threshold
“The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.” (NKJ)
“A thief is only there to steal and kill and destroy. I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of.” (Message)
I always knew there was more…
Growing up, I had this sense about God… that there was more. More than I was experiencing in my walk with Him. And I felt guilty. Because I knew that I must be doing something wrong.
And sometimes during worship, I felt this warmth. My soul thirsted after God. It kept me going after Him, because I found peace and love whenever those moments came.
Sometimes I would hear sermons, and I just knew that the message was for me. It didn’t matter if the room was full of people. The pastor/rabbi/teacher would ask people to come forward, and I would feel this hesitation and at the same time an excitement. God was asking me to come forward to choose Him now.
God chose me, but just as importantly, I chose Him...
Whenever I remember a choice going before a group of believers, I made that choice for Him. Every salvation message that pierced me. Every call for missions or evangelism. My heart has been seeking the lover of my soul all my life.
But what I didn’t know…
With God there is always more…
He came to give us MORE and BETTER LIFE!
The enemy is the one who wants to squash. He wants to squash our personality, keep us in sin, and eventually kill us.
Yeshua came for eternal and resurrection life…ongoing and renewing.
One day during worship, one moment I was just singing praise to the Lord and the next I had a picture of a well. I knew in my spirit, that this well was the Abundant Life of God offered to everyone. And just as I saw this abundant life, I knew that so many people are needy, desperate for love and life, and never find the source. And my heart broke. I wept, tears so profuse that they soaked the front of my shirt.
My leader approached me and asked what was going on. I could barely get the words out, my heart was so broken. Then she said to me, Bekah this well is for you. It took a moment, but I recognized my own neediness.
I remembered my time dating Ryan. How desperate I was for his love to fill my void. I realized that I had been using every relationship-family, friends, boyfriend-to fill that emptiness inside myself.
“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Messiah may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Messiah, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge--that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Yeshua Messiah throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.”
The Jesus Shaped Hole…
I used to tease that old evangelism trick, “each of us has a Jesus shaped hole inside of us.” But in that moment of revelation, I realized that it was true. But it wasn't just a hole in me, it was a void-a vast unending cavern. I was a pit that never could be filled. But thankfully, I had found the only one who could do “immeasurably MORE” than I could ask or imagine.
I asked Yeshua to start filling in this void in me, that I’d been scrambling to fill myself.
More and More and More…
Before going to discipleship school, I thought, “ok, get fixed by God then you’ll be able to go out into world missions.” But I soon realized that I will never be “good enough.” A walk with God is not about an end product, but about a journey. Running the race with endurance…not a sprint and exhaustion. More and more the words of Paul are so obviously true about my own nature.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
There is always a new place that God wants to take us. A new layer of our old self that He wants to strip, replacing rags with His beautiful robes. But it only comes when we realize, I can’t do it. It’s only my dependence on my Lovely Jesus that makes it possible.
Hebrews 3:7-8, 12-13
“So, as the Holy Spirit says: "Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion, during the time of testing in the desert…
See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.”
This December marks my 3 year anniversary of total surrender to God. Yes, I wanted God before 3 years ago, but when I surrendered my engagement to Him, it marked a turning point in my life. I heard Him, I did not harden my heart. At that moment, He gave me a picture of a wide road filled with adventure and joy…the abundant life!
Since that time I have: travelled to 9 different nations; made tons of new friends; climbed mountains, including actual rock climbing; swam in waterfalls; seen world wonders; seen natural beauty that could make you weep; I’ve left behind a lot of past insecurity and hurt; received a new heart; I've witnessed to people of many nationalities and shared my testimony; I have prayed and seen people healed and set free; and most importantly, I have heard God speak life and His love over me.
My friends, it is Today. Hear God’s call. Follow His voice. And He will give you an abundant life, more than you could ask or imagine.